Broken-hearted

Posted on 2010 under Ella, treasured moments | 1 Comment

12 Jan

I tried to avoid blogging about how our day went yesterday. It’s because until now my heart is heavy seeing Ella in tears. She is broken hearted.

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But then I think I have to write about it for Ella when she grows up.

When we went home the other night, the neighbors are already asleep so we waited for morning to be able to get Miyaki. She is the dog that Ella have been wishing for for such a long time. She was very happy and proud that she has a dog that she can call her very own. Miyaki’s been very active and playful since the day we brought her home. Then last January 1, Donald noticed her throwing up. I thought it was just some stomach upset and asked Donald to let her loose for a while so she can find a grass to eat. Dogs are like that, they eat a kind grass that alleviates the pain. After a day, she was back in her old self again until last Saturday when we left her to the neighbor’s care. They are animal lovers and they feed Miyaki well so I don’t think what Miyaki is going through was not contracted from being at their home and they don’t have a dog that has this disease. I am suspecting it’s from the loose dogs in the neighborhood that come to steal Miyaki’s food or maybe it’s passed from the mom.

So yesterday morning Donald fetched Miyaki. She was shaking and she has a fever. At first I thought it is parvo. We gave her antibiotics and vitamins but to make sure, I asked my sister’s high school classmate who is now a Vet based in Parañaque what could it be. She also thought it’s parvo but after I told her she’s not passing feces with very disgusting odor, she made a diagnosis that it’s canine distemper. Since Miyaki is shaking, her nervous system is already affected and miracle is our only hope.

Donald told me to prepare Ella for the worst. When Ella woke up, I just did what I’ve been told. I tried to muster the kindest words I could think of. I told her Miyaki is very ill and that she might die. As much as I wanted not to hurt her feelings, I don’t want to give false hope to her but then I could have said it BETTER. :-(

Well I thought Ella will take it lightly like how she took the death of my mother, Donald’s father and some other family members that she knew and spent time with. She was hurt especially when my mother passed away but she was greatly comforted by the thought that they will see each other again in heaven. She is good at consoling the bereaved family when we pay respect to the dead but it is really different when you are the one who lost a loved one. In her case, about to loose a pet. She sat by the door near Miyaki and tears cried silently. She can’t hold her because we are afraid she might bite and the fact that canine distemper causes gooey eyes and nose. And it is virus so I just want to make sure the kids are safe.

She was crying like Miyaki is dead. She was reminiscing the days when she waters her papaya plants at the back and Miyaki will start jumping when she go near her. She regretted not being able to walk Miyaki at People’s Park and her house is not yet finished. For Donald it is already done but to her it is not. She wanted a beautiful dog house. She said she wanted it painted pink and she was excited when I told her I can sew curtain for it.

I cried with her for 15 minutes. I stopped what I was doing because she needed me. You should see Miyaki try to jump and get near Ella and how Ella wanted to touch her but she can’t. I don’t want a dog in the house (mainly because we have a baby) but because she wanted it so badly I was the one who confirmed that we will take the dog. It was a surprise and she chose Miyaki over a handheld game she was eyeing at the mall.

Thirty hours has passed since Donald took Miyaki home and she’s still breathing. She is not shaking that much but you can tell she is really ill. I have read that dogs that survives this stage will have a lifetime disability. I was silently praying I would wake up to find her dead because I don’t want to see her suffer any longer but then I was hoping too that she will be miraculously healed. I will gladly take her even with she’s disabled.

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  1. by Julie, on January 14 2010 @ 2:36 am

     

    How sad. :(

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