Buzziest day

As much as I want to make this blog as personal journal as I wanted it to be, I could not resist monetizing it. But I will try to make it as personal as I could. Please be patient with me because I needed some moolah. My sister Crislyn sent me a YM message last night that there are many opps up for grab. I was in bed then trying to get Ella to sleep and Donald was infront of the pc so he did the hunting but there’s nothing available opps on our end. My sister offered to open my account and found nothing but she said to wait and so we waited until I finally grabbed one. Finally, because I don’t have the luck before. Since it’s already past midnight, Donald suggested I’d accomplish it in the morning.

I was too exhausted emotionally with Ella and so I agreed to do the post in the morning. For several days, she’s been acting so stubborn, repeats what we say and reasons out. I could not care less if she does the reasoning in the right way because we encouraged her to speak her mind out but she’s abusing that privilege. We tried different approach to stop her. We talked to her, warned her, gave her a swat on the rear and picked her lips but it did not do any good at all. Last night she did it again first to her Daddy then to me and it just made me so mad. I gave her some swat and sent her to the other room (her playroom) to spend the night. She was crying saying her sorry but I did not listen. She has to learn her lesson and she wanted it the hard way and so I gave her what she wanted. She went to the other room with her pillows and blanket. I asked Donald to help her with the mosquito net. Donald showed disagreement at first and said I just leave the girl alone….but I said she has to be disciplined. So Donald went in there and helped her, then Donald went back to the living room to watch TV and I pretended to be asleep in case Ella will get inside the bedroom. I just want her to know that I am not playing with her and that I could not tolerate what she’s doing. Of course I could not let her sleep there alone (because I could not sleep without my little body pillow), we are both not ready for the separation but I pretended that I am serious about it. A few moments later I heard her say between her sobs, “Patawarin na po ninyo ako….hindi ko na po talaga ulitin….tabi lang po ako sa inyo matulog….kasi hindi ko kaya na wala kayo….Pasensya na po kayo sa akin….” (Please forgive me….I won’t do it anymore….let me sleep with you….because I could not sleep without you….I am very sorry…..) This time I am trying not to get too emotional. Donald was the one who was more stern at this moment while I am about to call her and embrace her. He was telling Ella not to get inside our bedroom but she said, “Gusto ko po kayong kausapin….gusto ko humingi ng tawad….” (I wanted to talk to you….I want to ask for forgiveness….)

She was very sincere in her words and was crying and so I have to talk to her to distract Donald from getting in the scene. But while I was talking to her I could not stop myself from laughing and crying at the same time and I have to turn my back on her and bury my face on the pillow. Donald knew that I could not stop myself and yet I want to look very serious so Ella will really believe that I am serious so he started talking and talking. When I gained my composure, I called her closer and wiped her tears. I asked her if she really mean not to do what made me mad again and she started crying again saying, “Patawarin mo ninyo ako Mommy, Daddy….patawarin mo ako Mamang Eling….pasensya ka na sa akin ading ha? Bad kasi ako noon…ngayon magpakabait na ako…ayokong mamatay ka ading…hindi kita pabayaan…” (Please forgive me Mommy, Daddy…forgive me Mamang Eling….I am sorry my little brother….because I am bad before…but I will be good now…I do not want you to die my little brother….I won’t leave you….) She really did learn from it I know because she keeps repeating her sorry’s and she was talking to my tummy for so long. This drained me, I tell you but I am thankful that it reminded her of her boundaries. She did learn her lesson and she did sleep with us.

I was literally exhausted because of it but I woke up feeling better. I sat infront of the computer to work on my blog while Donald got her ready for school. It was such a busy day for me because after finishing one opportunity, I have grabbed one after another. I hope everyday would be as busy as today. Donald came from school and left again to fetch Ella, my face was still glued on the monitor. When they came home, Donald was waving a card and I knew it was from Christy - a friend I met online from Washington. I opened the card and was surprised to see Philippine money inside. It has 11 pieces of 100 peso bill. Donald was talking to the purple bills, “Mabuti pa kayo nakarating na ng America.” (You are better off because you have been to America)

In the afternoon, I went out for a while to check Western Union to pick up the $$ that Mama Ingrid sent for my birthday cake or anything to celebrate my birthday when she learned from Donald that I am turning 27. I was greeted with the same news like yesterday - they are offline since Sunday and they are not sure when their services will resume. I don’t want to go out tomorrow so I checked the other two outlets in town but I got the same answer. I hate getting dressed and going out from my cul de sac but I got no choice. I walked to the bank to withdraw the money sent by my FIL for our fare on Friday and waited in line. When it’s my turn, I went inside the atm booth, opened my purse, took out my atm card, noticed that what I brought was not an atm card but my Learning is Fun membership card, stepped out in an instant, people were amazed at how FAST I did the transaction and walked away smiling. Before going home, I went to get the ingredients that I needed for tomorrow. I suppose to cook tomorrow but Donald and I agreed that we will do it today so we could have longer feast. So this was the busiest day ever since we moved here. I am tired but fulfilled that I accomplished so much amidst the troubling pain on my belly.

Tags: atm, blogging, discipline, Ella, Learning is Fun, Philippine peso, Western Union

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